BY: ANN BOYD
E-MAIL ADDRESS: samson_boyd@hotmail.
BIBLE TEXT: “For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.” -Psalm 139:13
PERSONAL REFLECTION: Shortly after my husband and I were married I became pregnant with our first child. We were both very excited and looked forward to becoming parents and taking on the challenge of not just husband and wife but now the added blessing of parenthood. The pregnancy started out fine, but shortly into the second trimester I began to experience some problems. After having several months of uncertainty my doctor told us that I would most likely miscarry or potentially have a premature birth and that we probably should expect the worst.
That was certainly not in our plan nor was it something either of us wanted to hear. As I meditated on the words the doctor had said, instantly my heart went from feeling joy to being full of fear and sadness. The joy of knowing that God had finally given me a desire of my heart – to be a mommy — was challenged by a professional. I remember calling my parents to pray because I didn’t know what to do. Even though my husband was strong and held onto his faith that it would work out, I was beside myself in the reality of the situation.
One day as I sat in my room in tears, I told the Lord I wasn’t sure what to do. I had no control over the situation. Why was I being robbed of this precious gift ? But as I sat in silence and in tears, I began praying and thanking the Lord for what He could do and hoped He would do. I remember sitting and hearing this overwhelming “Voice/Reassurance” saying to me very directly, “I knit him together in your womb, don’t be afraid.” It was at that moment I knew in my spirit that everything would be alright. I held onto His words and rehearsed them in my heart. I had to rest in His promise and meditate on the reality of it. Even though the doctor’s words did not change nor did the situation immediately change, I knew what my Heavenly Father had promised me and I held onto His word. I chose to listen to the Voice of Truth.
A month before my due date I woke up one morning with an overwhelming feeling of uncertainty that I would make it to full term when the Casting Crowns song, The Voice of Truth, began to play on the radio. As I listened to the song, I literally felt the joy of the Lord beginning to fill my spirit as another reminder from God that He was near– another reminder of the Voice of Truth. Yes, maybe the odds were against me. Yes, maybe the storm was raging and the waves were lapping over me. Yes, maybe I was afraid to get out of the boat, but I heard the voice of truth and it encouraged me to take the steps of faith necessary.
Just as He promised me, my Heavenly Father safely carried my baby to full term by knitting him intricately in my womb. I’m thankful for the doctor and her skill, but the Great Physician had to be called on for this operation. Ten years ago I held in my arms for the first time one of the most beautiful miracles from the Lord — a miracle which was a reflection of his never failing promises and love. My sweet miracle from the Lord arrived healthy and perfect and those fears that threatened to rob my joy were diminished.
PERSONAL APPLICATION: Because of the battle we are in daily (Ephesians 6), and the fact that Peter reminds us in 1 Peter 5:8 to, “Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour,” and because he seeks to destroy our faith and all that we are in Christ, we need to stand firm, know, and listen to the Voice of Truth. Read God’s word in order to know His promises. Meditate on His promises, thanking Him for them, believing them and knowing His voice. I recall often my parents’ favorite verse as I daily face struggles with various situations in life. Proverbs 3:5-6: “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and He will make your paths straight.” He will make His ways known to you when necessary and His voice heard in times of need. He is faithful and He is able. “Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today and forever.” It’s refreshing to know that even though, “the grass withers and the flowers fall, the word of our God endures forever” (Isaiah 40:8). We can do as John 14:1, says, “Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God.” There are so many things He is and wants to be in your life. It may be that you just need to ask Him and wait for Him and listen for His voice. He loves his children. Don’t be afraid to ask and open your heart to hear his promise for you.
PRAYER: Heavenly Father, thank you for your promises and that you love and care for each of us and know all of our needs, desires, pains, hopes and joys. I pray that you remind each person of your care and that you speak to those that need to hear your voice in whatever the situation it is that they are facing. May your face shine upon them and give them peace. Amen
ABOUT THE AUTHOR:
I am a wife and mother. I was born in New York and raised in Harlem, Montana (Fort Belknap Indian Reservation) with four other siblings (2 older sisters and two brothers; one older, one younger) by truly the best parents in the world. I am a member of the Gros Ventre Indian tribe. I graduated from Trinity Bible College and I am in the process of working toward my masters degree. I’ve worked as a youth pastor, worked in children’s ministry, served as a head pastor at the Harlem Assembly of God Church. Currently work for the federal government as an analyst for the Office of Justice Services. I am excited to be part of my husband’s new adventure in owning and operating our own business. Family is a very important part of my life. I love music, reading, exercising, mountains, oceans, the great outdoors, almost anything that has life, (except creepy and scary things). I love spending time with my family, baking, and cooking, sports (especially watching my son) and going on date nights with my husband.