BY: GIOVANNA GOMEZ
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BIBLE TEXT: Psalm 26:2: “Examine me, O Lord, and try me; Test my mind and my heart.”
PERSONAL REFLECTION: Check out this brief video about phobias.
Interesting, isn’t it?
I don’t have any of the strange phobias listed on the video. In fact, I’ve always felt pretty fearless… until recently.
I hate to admit this but I have a fear of not getting enough sleep or losing sleep. I don’t think I have a genuine phobia, but I certainly feel a strong level of anxiety and worry if I think my sleep will get interrupted. This fear made itself known to me as a result of having a job that requires that I be on call two to three times a month for a period of 24 hours. No matter what sweet dream I may be having or how tired I am, if the phone rings at three in the morning while I’m on call I must answer it.
Recently, while driving the morning commute into downtown Nashville, God gently spoke to me about His continuing work in my life. He reminded me that growth does not happen unless there is a challenge or a test. While my little sleep anxiety is an insignificant issue compared to other much more critical things, the root of it is lack of trust that God has everything in my life under His control and that it’s all going to be OK even when I don’t get a full night’s sleep. The deeper underlying issue, however, is that I still have areas in my life that have not been fully surrendered to the Lord, and I’m not at peace unless I’m in control.
PERSONAL APPLICATION: “Examine me, O Lord, and try me; Test my mind and my heart.” God will use uncomfortable and unfamiliar situations in order to bring to the light the stuff that is hiding in the crevices of our souls — stuff that we don’t even realize we have. The uncomfortable and unfamiliar produces testing and our reaction to the test brings revelation of who we are and why we do the things we do. This process is not fun and it’s often painful but it does bring truth and growth. Are you willing to let God work in your life?
PRAYER: Father, my flesh and my heart may fail, but You are the strength of my heart and my portion forever (Psalm 73:26). I pray that You create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me (Psalm 51:10).
In Jesus Name.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR:
Giovanna has been blissfully married to Hubert for 26 years. They are parents to Andrew, who is married to Evelyn, and to Rachel who is a junior at the University of Valley Forge in Pennsylvania. They have been partners with Life Assembly since 2005. Giovanna is a social worker – a profession she loves. She enjoys hiking, gardening, laughter, and eating tasty food at restaurants with friends.