BY: AUDREY JACKSON
E-MAIL ADDRESS: Audreyjackson05@gmail.com
BIBLE TEXT: “See how very much our Father loves us, for he calls us his children, and that is what we are!” –1 John 3:1 (NLT)
PERSONAL REFLECTION: It comes in the still—the overwhelming realization that He was there in the chaos.
The chaos of getting two kids to school with two matching shoes–the Hello Kitty ones with the pink bows– the smoke filled kitchen that smells because I burnt the eggs while trying to pack lunches of grapes and cheese and peanut butter sandwiches. Scribbled on napkins are love notes–just like Mom used to give us. I still remember. I feel small wisps of His presence as I go along. As I drop a seven year old with big melt your heart blue eyes and a face full of freckles off at school, a verse is spoken to my spirit.
See how very much our Father loves us, for he calls us his children, and that is what we are!
But then the youngest one starts complaining that her stomach aches, and I remember that I dropped that blue-eyed boy off with a cough. My worry for him makes me worry that she might get sick too. And by the afternoon, she is curled up on my bed, 101.2 temperature, telling me about love.
“I love you Miss Audrey. Can I just lie here and snuggle?”
“Tell me what you think love is, London. What does it mean that Jesus loves us?”
And with such a pure heart, she says, “He just loves us. That’s all.”
And it feels like there should be more. In the end though, after the kids are tucked into bed and tears have rolled down your cheek—partly because you’re exhausted and partly because you feel as if you have done everything on your own strength all day—this is all that really matters. All that really matters is that He loves us. Enough to heal our aching bodies, enough to encourage us with His whisper, enough to call us His children, and enough to remind us that when all is said and done–when the midnight moon rises in the night sky and the weary earth rests–His will be done.
He comes to me in the still.
Working as a nanny for the past seven months has taught me that children rarely understand when you are doing something for their own good. Newborn babies flail their arms and fight sleep, toddlers cry when they have to eat their vegetables and put on their pajamas—even the older kids whine when you have to fix their dinner instead of play games with them. As their caretaker, you are doing what’s best for them, though they may not realize it. The same can apply to our relationship with God. So often, we feel alone in our days. We feel as if God is withholding some comfort or encouragement or even provision that we need. What I personally seem to forget, though, is that He calls me His child. Because of this, I can rest assured that God is giving me exactly what I need. He is making a way for me, providing for me, and more importantly—He is constantly loving me! In what ways are you questioning His timing, provision, or comfort? Are you coming to Him with the knowledge that He is preparing the way for us?
Lord, help me to see each and every day that you never leave my side. You are there fighting for me, caring for me, and loving me. Help me not to question your timing or your provision, but instead, to remember that you are my father. Even in the moments where I feel alone or can’t seem to understand why things are going the way they are, help me to remember that there is no greater love than the love you have for your children.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR:
Audrey is 22, the daughter of Tim and Cindy Jackson, and recently graduated from Lee University. She’s a bookworm, an outdoor enthusiast, and a lover of coffee ice-cream.